music progress.2 okami star field like tiny glowing stars some even moved around like ufos reminds me of usb field vision tests. they had the same. so they either taught me the language, healed me but i dont think they tried to harm me you think they tried to harm me? very weird why they gave me rp.. i guess they know angelic language, or it was just a normal field vision test. i have no idea why i had to go to usb all the time but yeah probably some angelic whatever machine well my mother asked if i went to usb i have no idea what they did there extract memories? saw into a different reality of pink glowing black building like strange things or cyber punk, it was like slowly opening my eye, lifting the curtain then concentrating to leave it open but at some point it disappeared symbol and another weird symbol at the end bright eyes closed, opened more and more talked to my dad gave leah a little feather with a heart i had this feeling that even normal emojis like two dots and half moon are special saw myself opening the door for leah with my thoughts, rewrote the past why am i behind reality again? and now tinnitus is very strong suddenly, everything is glowing pure golden, yeah just drugs man, lay off the drugs, all sparkly. they read these notes and think jesus take the lsd away from that guy saw myself glowing bright walking through the train waking people up saw myself teleporting to rav and walking through doors the musician at coop is there for good reason, she has a voodoo doll and is probably helping me, shook my heart i saw me healing her dog by putting my hand on it saw me teleport in front of coop kiosk saw me walk through coop door also felt it change my heart beat, it danced with the music okami briefly saw heaven with real angels golden wings he says symbolic? of course not i saw someone open it the curtain glowing with golden wings okami takes a while to open my eyes then theyre all glowing amber golden white even saw and felt white glowing white growing stronger and stronger as in i made it, as in opened fully saw me with an axe and the criminal here handing off my food saw me deleting my email address episodes in anime are coded again eg 135 its all for communication, i even saw the explanation... now it feels like being behind reality again amber gold reality cracking felt energy moved it consciously hand felt like someone reaching out to me rav woman asking why didnt u do the .... properly walked in front of coop as a ghost halding hands with the air spirit maybe? a woman smiled at us fondly "i can do magic without words" future wife/carer doesnt want to be left out thats what she does what she does, ill teleport to your place one day, dont be sad also felt like vibrating once its like: timeline adjustment future changing its not normal and it does feel like either changing dimensions or to me it felt like fixing time as in i just changed timelines again also saw myself protecting the house of my parents, talked to my dad also saw myself backtracing the supply chain of food to find the criminals, apparently its some guy putting it into the box "ofc it is" what? it could be many different things shes playing with smoke again it really seems like: i put a pillow over my eyes, its all dark i concentrate, relax, listen to music then with time my eyes open and glow bright yellowish amber white and i start seeing things its bright very bright and i also always see this very white light blending me also some more: concentrate on third eye, your eyes glowing white and music at the same time and now try to leave your body and control your env consciously and it felt like energy vibrating and me slightly moving out of my body moving energy around my body is slightly becoming better, i seem to feel it often or almost always now gurdjeff is great, he knows what hes talking about and it feels like this amorph blob moving around in my body activating energy and others really feels like that white eye the wife of naruto has and or the one by moon knight also saw myself talking to mehrave, i had the feeling she had a partner already heard someone lie down next to me before? concentrate on your heart more feel love for the ones present and family open your eye like this: third eye focus, glowing eyes focus, focus amorph energy and energy gurdjeff in body, feel heart breathe through heart, then focus on person to see where he is what he does listen to the person talk to the person, itll come with time i always have this mentor in me teaching me try to restrict your exyes like the eyes of the wife of naruto why do people have laugh lines? the lines left and right to their eyes from laughing? its a wakeup call laughing represents focus, sort of anger but mainly eye restriction, the wrinkles represent like in naruto when the naruto wife concentrates, the veins, its to remind them and teach them gently the power of eyes and how to use them, the wrinkles are a joke, its not a bad thing or a good thing or basically meant as skin damage, its on purpose... i said by all means necessary. what do people say, smile more. oh those laugh wrinkles are good! yes. because it helps others and yourself gently until you make the connection. its on purpose without hurting people. this band is very special treat your body as something with cheat codes, you did this already: doing multiple rituals simultaenously while doing diaphragmatic breathing thinking of cute girls now: third eye ON heart mode ON love ON glowing eyes ON root of back ON etc who did that? briefly my eyes activated deactivated black there is this scene where someone makes fun if someone else yes community but not only, squinting eyes... its not an insult. its meant well to teach ppl to use their eyes by contracting the muscles... try that with white glowing eyes, byakugan? something like that abra cadabra, open the magical door sesam oeffne dich my dad kept saying they made fun of me for being chinese and having small eyes, squinting yeah unintentionally teaching me spirituality, see? made fun of his abusers even saw myself sitting next to the voodoo girl in front of coop and just hanging there macro micro: saw myself backtracing biohackers first oana went to space hacked satellites found their location in russia doxxed them on github with pics supermarket, had to pay like 1.40 more for some fruit saw more angelic language the sound before felt holy hinkstep: i made that song da vinci michelangelo raphael? whats his name their research is important especially da vinci saw myself teleporting and giving the urologist woman a gift i imagined that da vinci img of that person and my energy spreading in my body everywhere and it activated, focus on finding the balance rav woman asked me: did you really see and talk to god? = time more fluid, merging more and more and become one. what i mean is: that meetings in the future. yet now i write down talk to god (in the past) and he is waiting (the moment itself) all as one in one instant deep dark hatred filled heart, asvend ascend andrin, almost made it, felt energy teleported to taste match and slit that interviewers throat who keeps talking to me? not telepathic, its not human, i dont hear it i just know air spirit? no she usually doesnt knack, sometimes yes but not like that dont tell me the knacker? i think so it thought im leaving my bed and knacked before it and asked are you not coming? i love my life just for having experienced this hinkstep: saw my dad visit me and pick me up but he was scared they would secretly sabotage his car saw xenia and was sad for her insanely deep hatred for what mankind has done to my family soft puffy cloud heart saw the cute girl from oetwil at the train station, when she walked past me, in the past: andrin, try to go back in the past then change something of your behavior, it should change the present and future, concentrate, alter your behavior, maybe go back not that far in the past to make mini tests hinkstep: you can open and close your third eye like a muscle, like you just did. concentrate on it then feel the muscles open it, like leelah in futurama. theres a reason leylah came to inventage, and not for her abuse consciously altered past: with inventage some girl was fond of me at lunch in a restaurant and pesche said my name. i talked to her now and said hi, i didnt back then. some of what i drew is alien disease saw some guy go to apodro here with some such disease asking for help even yelling i checked before: yes andrin if properly trained you will see with eyes closed again. then they cant control or see through your eyes. i checked.. i had my pillow tightly over my eyes and head, it shouldve been black but it was all bright glowing light amberish whiteish once i ascend i can instantly kill anyone once i wake up i can just use the rubber to write out their existence macro micro: pulsating third eye left body half pulsated was in coop teleported around and shopped like that teleported to sbb girl n she asked if i can teach her teleporting lots of very weird shapes and symbols doubt theyre human or recorded anywhere fine white lines but not only, tbh felt like yet another alien race contacting small 1 fat border semi transparent in the middle tried to change past again (meeting with mehrave) nibana: i feel my third eye more and more strongly as in the muscle or whatever it is felt energy in my body a few times saw myself terrorizing oetwil as overlord sitting down on the iron throne... finally back i even feel it in my head i also saw me leaving my body but as a non human entity ty knacker for being here nibana reset button eyes i saw many places again, i felt my vision open like a window and looked at a restaurant over the lake taught lucian meditation at sumex this young guy at the train station here who treated me like a dog, scared him with my skills saw something then... sort if a blue mini orbs black overlay from right to left, felt very alien and special, special state maybe i saw myself use this phone i even saw the search terms... and this one song felt like a protocol maybe of activation felt strong energy in body and head even face, particularly left side of face changed state again somehow, loss of breath but not in a bad way i twitched before a few times very weirdly, my toes all moved, head twitched, body parts twitched. very weird. also activation maybe? seemed very very strange like a bootup sequence of a robot. was in the sky once too and the energy i once felt in my entire body wasnt the normal energy, it felt like this holy peaceful pure energy and my eyes got insanely bright white and i thought im ascending or becoming a pure being its alien language now the notes are normal? really seems to be my inner state transferred to the phone i can snip with my fingers to make things work skills... set stuff on fire, cause sheer terror in the minds... in a different session i saw that younger clone of mine and it felt like merging...